Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts

Tuesday, February 9, 2016

fantastic uncertainty



 When Judgment Day sounds in the last trumpets
and planet and millennium both
disintegrate, and all at once, O Time,
all your ephemeral pyramids cease to be,
the colors and the lines that trace the past
will in the semidarkness form a face,
a sleeping face, faithful, still, unchangeable
(the face of the loved one, or, perhaps, your own)
and the sheer contemplation of that face—
never-changing, whole, beyond corruption—
will be, for the rejected, an Inferno,
and, for the elected, Paradise.

-Of Heaven and Hell

Monday, December 7, 2015

it moved : it breathed




couple pages from a book we
just finished
forthcoming forthcoming
titled
terminal obscurity
encryptopoetics[]sigiletics

Monday, July 27, 2015

nΩtes on the deliverance øf a new friEND : decelerator

I've been accused of taking things personally, "too serious" says the trickster!
but Death is my Dance, Death is my Game
tragic is my comedy


and with a grin and gallows humour I blow my trombones
haunting hunting trills on ribcage xylophones
a smiling skull sighing out a groaning moaning poem
to annihilate your dreams of Home.

Señor Coyote, I may not understand your dance (I'm not omniscient, even at my best)
but I understand the bee's dance
the tree's dance 
when the wind wilds the way
before a thunderstorm collapses the world and
sends you quivering cowering underneath my laughing leafing beard.


Your speed will be needed Little Brother, because
I am a fucking glacier
a bone-bleaching desert,
the deep ocean beyond sight of land
that ancient battlefield behind the tobacco farm out past the church
that glows godless spectral at 3am soul's midnight
as Valhalla spews forth ragged companies of all my
special sons and daughters



 I am


the deep down things of long-dead Gods and Outer Time
the swamping corpse of rivers dying
that hole in the world you can't define behind your eyes


labyrinthine wake-ing dreaming you can't divine and can't divide.

Señor Coyote, the raccoon has your magic,
and an opposable thumb,
and superior climbing ability,
and a willingness to sink to the sewer to survive,
My master lockpick when keys
are lost to lycanthropy
but if you seek to sneak me, searching, peeking for sneaking ankles to bite
the ash you'll taste in mouth is I, as We wheel and caw
contemplating murder.


Señor Coyote, I can feel your sneaking footsteps swift across my shoulders.
I hear you running over the ground down bones of a million of your brothers,
broken-backed by brighteyed wolves howling voids at starring skies,
by relentless Time, or stealth-perched panther's eyes.
come inside the crucible, the hurricane of Nature's Eye and learn to teach the I and I to Die.

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

low-level ritualizations

1: updated version of Mycelegium paper added
2: 8:30pm May 18th at Tavern of Fine Arts in St Louis, a Void Front event:
   
         secret graves: a spoken-drone seance
come watch us drone on and on…..about Nothing.


https://www.facebook.com/events/371130819751091/

There will be no record of this event if I can help it.

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

exacting space:enacting space

a little white noise and fluff





deep down things
-
Properly ignored, I thought I had demolished
You
O’ wizard, perched like an ill omen on all my crooked creations.
As the body still holds fast beyond the threshold, even as I steal your wings in the dark, my flawing flying curses!
The diagonal dilemma diagramming the unlimited limit constrains until it is complete.
My body strains for dormancy
All rituals to dust and no consequence.
"My secret is no secret."
Quiet! I say, rasping black gaspings
Clasping my hand around the blade, drew muddied bloodied dripping magick back
"In the blood, yes, unconstrained but you pain us with your flailing!"
Hoarse exhalation magnifies incoherence.
Your eyes glowed white at the sight of the crucible.
"Sacramentum futuri, panem de excidium!"
I hear your weakness old one, your bones are dry
let my flooding melt you down.
"This swamp will rectify, the sludge an appropriate retort!"
Contain yourself, sorcerer, fool, explain yourself!
Triple septagram, polar coordinates calculated for catastrophe-capturing,
re-leashed to this permanent haunt, I will bind the way
You flaunt your freedom.
"And I hear your weakness, it speaks too soon,
Wrong directions grace your silver spoon!
Step outside your flat circle, miserable mortal automaton, the Challenge has been made."
The Voice
Crashed
from everywhere
"No chalk scratchings delimit this lesson.
I is Nothing: uncontained, your shadow flees
to the safety of my transience."
Eye stood firm, sweating sweet acid dissolving no body.
Subliminated in the cyclone of Blind Time.
His Instrument, of no more consequence than dust, I melt down
"Through sand you crawl, worm, till sand -for all- you learn."
Heated into glass in this blast furnace.
Vortexing and hexagramming, my funeral funnelled
back to me, I said
I see, I said,
I SEE!





never came back
-
I foraged through the forest but what I searched for was too dear to see from so near.
I had to climb up the tallest tree to see that
me and thee, we were free from underbrush politicking.
One rung up, one ring out, and light on our feet we reached
the puppet pulling his own strings
pulling every string
we plucked glacial melodies to harmonizing galaxies
pulling fated string theories, pandora's music box
erupted and the Wyrd became The Way
The Way became the Day, Day became the Night
The Darkness was voluptuous when the Light
from Luna shattered glassy waters.
Aya's daughters danced through prismed auroras of
Geometric infinitudes and emotional amplitudes
Tracing steps of every beginning's end
as every veiling rends.



 




sharpening animus
-
We went round and round
in a leaf like cupped hands carrying us to and fro
the old man shining brilliant on the water, after emerging from the clouds
Children with golden eyes racing over waves signalling thunderheads.
They stomped and chanted, entranced.
Showers of sparks gently bouncing from sweating shoulders as they danced around the fire.
I watched the dust rise from the rhythmic pounding of feet, slowly growing dizzy.
I sat at the side of the Winged Mother whose form swam in my eyes.
The river's teeth in the hands of the skincarver cut the sign of the raven into my brow.
I felt the wound begin to pulse in time with the dance and that is when I saw him.
Face shadowed under wolf-pelt, his eyes burned like a wicked whipping wind in the mountains.
A vision, some kind of poison dream.
He spiralled through the spinning
My vision twinning, thricing, splicing
I was icing, boiling, howling
crowing, crying, sighing, dying to
race this wolf over the flats,
Fire an arrow through its mask.
Pierce where no one dares to ask
dig my bones up from the past.







perpetua
-
upon solar approach
time has been eaten
new vector in flames
burning white jetroar
mainlining leonine vortices
hypercalculatory ebb and flow
and flux
and structuring of now and no
bending shadows to
frame the photo-
synthesis of symbiosis
I, plant, plant my feet in
deep below the plane of soil and
growth and life
grimoire geology
erosion technology
east of the altar
the white seemed holy
but black and green
held it aloft
  





The repairmen
-
He cracked the book, thumbed through in a casually erratic manner, slapped it shut. As well for him that he didn't take any notice of the contents.  "They're just using you. You need a clean fix, none of that slop. That shite'll turn you into a fucking bug."

###"Only my eyes."

"Only his eyes, he says, like he's takin' out the rubbish or pulling a bloody pie out the oven! You're quite optimistic, mate. "

###"The new mix is extremely specific."

"Well don't think you're gonna be comin' around scaring the kids when you start broadcasting in twelve dimensions. Difficult enough to understand you as it is."

###"They seem to understand me quite well."

"That's what I'm afraid of."

###"We've wasted enough time. Turn it on."

He pushed forward on the lever we had taken to calling the throttle and I felt the familiar warm pulse. The device whined. Time and Ego liquefied.




Thursday, February 5, 2015

time is a flat circle : how many faces do you have?


Radically destabilising the notion of I

Destabilising the foundational rationale of I

Decentering the stabilising notion of the radical eye

Foundationally centering the notion of stabilising radicality

Fundamentally fracturing the notion of stable center, radicalize

Radical unfounded 

center eye stability

Give rise to 

confoundational 

denotional 

devotionals, 

radical stability,

fractal centering, 

ratio destabilisers,
 
eye-erarchy, 

higher-archy, 

circle-splittings and 

rhyme spittings











I am that i am Not so We can Be









Friday, November 28, 2014

what what what what what what want what what what

they told me there was no saving you
and really, i loved the madness
your wings enveloped me
and i threw you to the ground



but seriously.


my back is bending further and further. hurt everywhere, all the time. i am at some low level of sickness just about always. ground covered in snow/feel it in every previously broken bone. Afraid to tell anyone or go to the doctor because, well obviously, what if it is something bad? Can't I just die in peace in my own due time, without some fucking quack butcher sawing up my gutty-wuts and telling me I'm an asshole for doing drugs all the time and eating terrible food and never letting him poke and prod me before?

a clever aside:


My throat is slimy
my nose drips
my head is bangin'
but not because what I'm listening to
Rips.

My eyes are dry
my lungs feel ?thick?
no one listens to my diatribes on
the realpoli-tik

My toes do this thing
where they feel like they break
and get unbearably hot.
Please, prepare my wake.

Surely, it won't be long
I am cold to the bone
can't lift the whiskey,
is there no end to this hell? I'm alone!

Stressed and depressed
clenched my teeth till they cracked
not like I use them,
for my tummy is all
out
of
Wack.

it rumbles and grumbles
bitching just so,
I'm afraid one day it shall give up
and crawl right out of the mouth-
Hole.

my hands hate the work
and work hates the hands
but the rent must be paid!
you know we are subservient to the
Man

jackboots and batons out the door
and needles and pins within
my back may be broken (literally)
but I'm thankful my teeth have so much
Skin. (did that work? did you get it?)

Clearly I'm dying,
but what's to be done?
the whinging won't do
and the complaining's all gone!

Because someone said it better, first.

Thursday, October 2, 2014

comprehensive pupal stage insurance

threading across snowfields/ threatening to overtake expression as the result of infinite dispersal/ i have eaten today and it is already spacing me//
from the most unlikely places/ the kingdom of heaven one day may start to unravel//
the virtues of plants/ the forces of magical conjurations/ invoking the symbolism of the sea in order to align himself/ but all unintelligible//
my modest contribution to this were broadcasts via my brain from a shaman of long ago/ in these sorcerous images/ these his purest incantations are marks to function/ marks of place/ marks of time//
keep going/ no progress to the inevitable release/ targets of light expansion/ meta-energetic and left-handed//
we sat in the fountain/ strangers/ careful to stay under the ledge//




(( watch this video: http://vimeo.com/75940226 ))



"they start to exist in you. in spite of you."



i shot an arrow into the air
and believed i hit the moon.
she ignored my command to "fall!"
and restlessly continued.









Monday, August 25, 2014

unsettling:unriddling:unraveling




                                                   these impulses run amok in this world
in this work
strangled orders and suppressed motion
climbing over walls of water
climbing over walls of smoke
a touch of fear
but only for the touched
spiritless voice chants
obey
comply



these thorns run wild in this work
in this world
strangled overtures and suppressed miracle
climbing over waves of sound
digging under landfill
for truth of fear
but only for the truthful
spiritless voice chants
obey
comply


Sunday, July 6, 2014

leaves in river

     With the innate nature to grow between 
the two horns of Satan - inward virtue - you have been correct and careful! 
How is it that he who 
lights a fire 
kills living beings? 
They will not escape 
this fate anyhow: innumerable 
spheres in all directions wake from the trance. 
No perceptions - it is not suffering - but we have decided to retire from this world. 
Muhammed is the father of no man among you, for the crocodile chooses. 
The recapitulation was a disposal of the dead. 
Corpse-eating birds, carry the bones. 
The sharper people's weapons, the more they riot. 
Hollow becomes full and nobody thought 
me to be God while I dwelled in the tallest grass. 
There I performed the 
Great Death. 
I worshipped penance. 
Renounced birth. In this triple order, unworthy, ascetic. 
Only a skull left behind where I saw omens of chaos, adorned and guarded. 
Tell me, who are you? 
"Sin and Punishment", he replied. 
We floated on, 
heavenly, 
as the 
entire 
army
 rode
 into the sea 
to seek
 refuge from the sand.

post-structural miserablism : everything will always make me unhappy

a calm erasure                                     nowhere
of nothing
                                                    a void within
I don't hold                                            myself

                        this void holds me
                                    within
                                         it


if you seek
Unity
Oneness
don't discount
the path of
Zero
the path of emptiness
A path
or
No Path
All destinations
are perfect
and No destination
is the end
because
no destination
is the
End

"to put meaning in one's life may end in madness,
But life without meaning is the torture
Of restlessness and vague desire-
It is a boat longing for the sea and yet afraid."
-Edgar Lee Masters  'Spoon River Anthology'

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Evocation; an Elaboration.

When I first entered this Way, I relied on mySelf very readily. It was natural. It FELT natural, at any rate. It felt so real I fell into operating in a very-Real-manner almost at once. It was only after a dream-death that I came to the realization that, despite the "reality", despite the here-and-NOW-ness of it all…that this Way was just the many corridors of this trance. Despite the protests (of which there were plenty), I returned constantly. I dreamed about shattering the wall I'd inevitably find at the end of every path, though honestly, who is to say whether it is a wall or not (No wall. Not-wall. The Great Wall of Not)…after all, I can only touch it, sealed there in the dark, feel my way down its oddly textured surface. I grope desperately at every grain and graft (of which there are plenty) like someone newly blind. Like my eyes were taken forcibly and I'm far from adapting. It radiates a something….a drive, or maybe a hunger. I often make guess and estimations of its nature by listening to what it hungers for, drives toward….these guesses ultimately feel superficial and I think it knows this. I know it, at any rate.

Is this thing Me? Of Me? Merely INSIDE Me? Is this the dark passenger Burroughs mentions? It is stealthy, strong, and smart, but utterly beyond me apparently. It occasionally seems to be on my side though, which raises its own set of questions.

"One of our most ancient proverbs justifies the war prisoner: 'the captive will cry out, the dead man never.' "  -Aleksander Solzhenitsyn  'The Gulag Archipelago'

nothing is illuminated - back to black, the deck is stacked
against the wise
who rise to face clashing tongues wagging and
bragging for scraps on a dirty wooden floor notched from
teeth dropping from smashed faces bloody from
fucking
nothing
and crying like a dying dog
it sits, baffled at an end it couldn't see coming
because more than two eyes are required to
see into coiled cold snakes eyes
from birthrights to death rituals
we sullenly scrape the surface and find infinite surface
no progress.
ultimate regression is stagnation
backward
is a
forward
and
nothing is worth remembering